i am sze rui .. :)

2010-09-21T06:35:00.000-07:00

exams are coming ..
study. Study. STDUY !!!
can't wait for the 13th where i can let go
of everything.. not all.
my maid went home yesterday
because my mother wasnt happy with her ..
and everyone erupted as there was no maid
thinking that my mother is insane as the
house will go in chaos.
well i agree a little. but new maid will be coming
not sure if the same things will happen again. hope not.
after i bathed i came out , my mother was crying
no idea why ..didnt want to know either.
was just sick and tired of everything.
i went to study. awhile later . my father called me.
i was shocked when i heard.
"he said he owed loan shark money , he didnt have
money to pay and people may come to our house
spray paint , and blahblahblah and that he had
reported to the police and told me if i saw anyone
suspicious just call 999."
i was like WTF. FML man.
irritating. i thought all paid.
now come and say still have loan.
whack all of them la.
bullshitter.

2010-09-07T11:22:00.000-07:00

Do you feel that your heart breaks

whenever you see someone alone sitting

in the mrt or somewhere eating alone ?

Do your heart breaks whenever

you see a toddler or baby cry?

Whenever i see this situations ..

my heart always hurts.

i dont know why ..

i feel like crying with them

or just talk to the person alone.

i may sound weird.

but its true..

do you go for something you want but you can't

and sometimes you just can't decide if you really want

it or not ?

2010-08-21T22:31:00.000-07:00

i feel different now ..
it isnt the same anymore
i thought it would be better
but it wasnt.
i was wrong.

2010-08-17T04:13:00.000-07:00

my parents quarrelled about money again..
FML!
its so bloody irritating!
with my mother ..
she complain to me about everything ?
then i what?
got the money come help them arh?
Freak lor.
so fcuking irritating !!!!
argh!
wah. want kill someone sia.

2010-08-16T05:19:00.000-07:00

words and hearts should be handled with care,

for words when spoken and hearts when broken

are the hardest things to repair.

2010-08-04T00:07:00.000-07:00

Now my mother's friend say got teacher
in indonesia suddenly want to quit.
wah .. crap sia.
Then if she is really going she may leave as
soon as next month
wtf ..
haiz..
she want to leave also because
she dont want to see my father.
what logic is that?
then what about us ??
...
would you let your love one leave ??
but she wants to ...

2010-07-31T09:49:00.000-07:00

i really miss campcraft
i miss it so much!
all the memories are always engraved in my memory
we should organise a chalet at the end of year.
i really want another outing . .

2010-07-25T04:25:00.000-07:00

ndp do what de ??
i have totally no idea ..
got a feeling that i will make a fool out of myself..
was just looking at photos in my phone..
i really miss campcraft.
my heart just hurt.
i really cannot imagine when everyone graduate ..
what will happen ??
Seniors, Peers, Click, Best freinds, Everyone.
all of us going our own ways.
maybe some will be the same but not all.
i will really miss everybody.
i can only cherish whatever i have now.
time will not go back...

2010-07-22T00:29:00.000-07:00

in com lab now :P
ive been thinking of you this few days .. why ??
gtg now
bye

2010-07-18T06:40:00.000-07:00

I just realized that it has been a long time since i updated ..

I only know that ill be quite busy for the next few weeks ..

i also dont know what to type le.

next time then update ba ..

Bye !!

2010-06-20T20:25:00.000-07:00

Im at the airport now.
going off very soon now..
Will miss all of you here.. :p
Do miss me too .
Bye !!!

2010-06-13T08:20:00.000-07:00

hahahahas !!! My mother can't go overseas.
but there can be changes but not for now !! :P
hahas .. so happy !! (:

I have to make another decision.
I cannot really decide what i wanna do..
haiz.

2010-06-04T07:32:00.000-07:00

can we pretend that airplanes in the night
sky are like shooting stars
i could really use a wish right now..

my mother said that if she is leaving
she will not be here next month.
i was like wtf. now then say.
i do really wish that she can't go.
if she really go i have no idea what
is gonna happen to me.

this few days im kinda confuse about
me. what am i feeling or doing ??
i have totally no idea..
whats happening ?

2010-05-28T02:24:00.000-07:00

my parents are quarreling and it is pissing me off!
wtf.. always quarrel one then now like cold war like that
then sometimes i talk to them they dont reply!
eh! respect me can ? i also not quarreling with you .
stupid ass sia !
i also dont know what happen lor.
come back from np that day i think until now.
wtf. surely got to do with money de lor.
then now the more my mother want to leave.
she ask if i agree for her to leave i said no
but then she still insist. might as well dont ask!
she leave then i how ? go die arh ?
i live with my father ??? its gonna be hell !
.. fcuk la !

2010-05-25T08:21:00.000-07:00

Days have passed and i think
i have made up my mind about it.
i shouldnt be regretting as there
are reasons to make sure ..

now chatting with jade and wenli.
jade say want take my first kiss !!!
ahh !! but actually..........
BRING IT ON ! hahas .. jkjkjk :P
will be going on shopping spree starting this saturday .
june holidays is so close yet so far (:

i really hope that i will never experience
something like that ever again. i really do ..

2010-05-22T01:29:00.000-07:00

Today im very sorry about it.
i should have remembered.
im very sorry about it.

I've been thinking a lot this days..
and i still do not know what to do .
Now another reason has come out and
it is adding to the problem.
i know that i will hurt you if i do it but if i dont
i will hurt another person too ..
what am i suppose to do ??
i can only give in one way.
i do not act as if i care doesnt mean i dont care.

2010-05-14T02:41:00.000-07:00

exams are over ..
but feeling very unease about it.
i dont know what im feeling now too ..
im in a dilemma ..
Linda , you know what im talking about (:
im seriously confused.
should i ?
i feel like. but how ? ...
haiz ..

2010-05-05T19:31:00.000-07:00

i just finished my math paper 1 ..
and it kinda suck.
i was checking and i found out my answer is wrong.
i went to change and halfway changing ..
Mr Jaya said put our pens down.
haiz .. its okay
whatever is done cannot be undone.
to everybody too ..
lets work hard for paper 2 and get good results. (:

tomorrow will be history ..
then about 6 more days its over !!!!
i can go out !!
i cant really tolerate anymore.. :D
ohya , english paper 1 miss nura say i write wrong purpose.
haiz again .. hahas (:
hope my language and paper 2 and compo can help me.
then chinese is kinda good. (:

okay , got to go already ..
bye (:

2010-04-23T01:09:00.000-07:00

finally .. after a long time i got the urge to update (:
hahas .. maybe not even 1 person may see this post
due to the long period of time but i still gonna tyoe this post
because i just want to (:

this few days ..
something just confused me
im not sure what to do next.
should i just give up ?
its starting to annoy and irritate me already .
and its starting to make me feel so regretful.
maybe i shouldnt have do it in the first place.
i'll see how things go and
decide after exams ..

talking about exams ..
WE STILL LEFT 5 MORE DAYS LEFT TO THE FIRST PAPER!
i hope that everyone i know including me of course
will do well ..
lets work hard together and
get our goals !
many things has happened over the past few
months when i didn't update this blog ..
and i finally managed to revived this dead blog. (:
decided to slack today and really choing
tomorrow.

i will go now (:
bye !
szerui :D

2009-12-19T06:22:00.000-08:00

hey people !!
it's been a long time since i post .
camp craft training started
i will get sun burnt every training
and blisters but it's okay la ..
i suddenly love cca
hahas =D
went to the chalet had a lot of fun
saw a lot of friends whom
i've not seen them for a long long time ..
will post soon gotta go
bye !!!

2009-12-12T03:10:00.000-08:00

it's Amirah's birthday tomorrow !!!
happy 'early' birthday to you .
school is starting very soon in like 3 more weeks .
i'm kinda scared for next year
there will be streaming and cca will not be as relaxing as now ..
i'm not sure if i'm able to balance everything .
i will not have maid very soon
because my family is freaking broke !
it means that i can't have tuition if i want to.
which also meant that i have to do some HOUSEWORK !
it's gonna be hell on earth in my house .
2009 is a great year for me
especially 1e3 .
i will definitely miss year '09
whatever is gonna happen next year
i think i am prepared to face it.
starting with sec 2 work already .

anyway , i want Sylvia to win singapore idol .
i want a female idol not only i want a female
singer , Sylvia is definitely a better singer than
Sezairi ..
go Sylvia !!

whatever happens in the busy 2010 i hope it will turn out smooth ..

2009-11-30T02:37:00.001-08:00

Finally have sucessfully changed my blog skin ..
so tired now ..
will post another day
bye .. =D